I was in the shower, you know trying to relax and have my 5 minutes of alone time before it is time to nurse Ezra again. Instead I was picking my husbands pubic hairs out of this fancy little shower mat I picked up from Home Goods for 10.99 that is suppose to massage and clean your feet. Yeah you read that all right but just incase you think you didn't go ahead and re-read it again, I'll wait....
So I stopped and thought to myself, is this really my life. My husband walked in with a slight attitude after coming home from work and I am already annoyed because this past weekend alone was the longest of my life. He got is wisdom teeth pulled and the world was over so the breaks that I would usually get I didn't cause he needed to nurse himself back to health(rolls eyes). Back to the shower though... I am 26 years old I have been married for almost 2 years and I have a 4 month old baby, but I can't help but to scroll through Instagram and be envious of the people who are single/married w/kids and traveling the world right now. I may never see the outside of this country while in my 20's because right now we got sh*t to handle. So instead I am home watching my 4month old, not working but working and loosing all sense of self.
Its Our Anniversary....( slow two step)
Thats right, today I have been writing on this blog for a year, and I can not express enough how awesome it has been, but actually I can and thats why I wrote this blog post.
This has been years in the making and I say this because there have been other times that I have made a blog and didn't stick to it because I had a fear that no one is really reading or that I was not interesting enough to be a blogger. I didn't have a fancy camera or time to take photos of my outfits, and lets be real I didn't have money to be buying these outfits, cameras and more makeup. I didn't feel I could be those girls that I subscribed to. I tried multiple times and different names and suddenly I woke up one morning and said to my husband I am going to try this blog thing out again, and I am going to call it "TheBlogXO". I didn't want some clever little name and I wanted it to be what I truly felt it was. A blog make will love and that when people read the blog blog they would find it comforting. So thats why I put the XO on it hugs and kisses are comforting to me and to anyone. I had felt God tugging on my heart constantly telling me to use my voice. I have a testimony and I have this special situation God had put our family in, why not share it with others. I knew I wasn't alone in what I was going through but I felt I was.
Lets be real, Who really is trying to have sex after having a baby.... (I sure wasn't )
If you have been following me for a while you will know that sex is one of my favorite topics and also my favorite thing to do. Its great exercise and obviously great for your marriage, but after having a baby I can honestly admit I was watching the calendar, dreading my 6weeks to be up and I just knew my doctor was going to say you're clear to have sex now. Even though I was clear I still wasn't ready but I knew I couldn't hold out on my Husband for two long.